i got back into the mood of playing kichiku megane again. you probably know i talked about it before......so why am i talking about it again?
stress is building up because exams are coming in 2 weeks time. i want to distress by watching man rape man.   simply because there are no uke yusa jobs for last month or this month at all. i am badly deprived of yusa kouji's lustful voice.......  
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and then, the last time i played this was like 3, 4 months ago and i only did 1 route out of the 31 endings. (i wasn't paying attention to what is happening in other routes.)
hence, this time instead of  midou X N. Katsuya.  i did Megane Katsuya X Midou for both Kichiku and Kichiku R.



katsuya seems sweet in the picture but.... you will shocked if you play KM. you will fully understand what is the meaning of 'men are beast'.

Let's just say megane Katsuya in Kichiku is a 100% bastard.  i thought midou is horrid in the midouXkatsuya route but megane katsuya is way worse. (ah duh! that's why the game is called 'kichiku' = brutal)

back to the topic, what he did was purely unforgivable. katsuya just does whatever he likes. he doesn't even give people a change to turn away. at the very least, midou give N. katsuya a choice that he can leave anytime.   

megane katsuya just goes around drugging people, raping midou, video taped it and threaten him with the video.
then he decided to crush midou by locking midou up for days then confess to him. ( of course, midou is already in a withdrawn state on the verge of breaking down. i am amazed that he did hear katsuya's confession.)    
one year later, midou decided he love megane katsuya too.        
(  -_-)............................ this game is totally nonsensical.  

kichiku megane R makes more sense. In Kichiku megane, M. KatsuXMidou is just intense but in R, the scenes are so sweet and soft with a complete 180 degree switch.

Kichi R starts off with  these two being a couple and co-founder of a new rising company.  M. Katsuya met up with his childhood friend who started the bullying when he was young. he became agitated and lost. he doesn't let midou know since he wouldn't want his girlfriend to see his weak side.  midou supported katsuya in his own way. despite being raped or almost fully raped, he managed to get katsuya to stop before he do anything he will regret.   (of course, we are the ones who choose if katsuya rape or do not rape the rapist back.)

i just find it so funny that megane katsuya can tame the proud and arrogant midou so much. midou display a complete different aura from the one in first game.  he still has this proud aura but not because he look down on you but simply a sense of satisfaction that you are here with him.  he doesn't seem as cold as well.  actually, as long as katsuya isn't there in KM 1, midou is any normal salaryman you see.    as KM 1 proceed, midou changed from a tiger to a cat that shiver and run at the site of M. Katsuya.

although i keep saying midou is arrogant but from the way midou work, i have to say midou just seems to be arrogant and direct it  towards Katsuya only. basically, midou works with the basic principles and rules set by the company. however, he does change accordingly to situation. the thing to note is he speaks up for his subordinates if it is not in their wrong.  an arrogant boss probably won't do anything.  he told katsuya in the face that it is katsuya who is not picking up the phone and not fujida fault that he is not informed.     M. katsuya need some anger management.

</div>when i saw the video, it is simply O_O....

in words, it is 'mad man'.

parents are stupid but they refuse to admit that they are dumb. while thinking they are smart, they pester us with questions and say we are dumb if we can't answer them. 

they don't know everything and the same goes with us.
what the fucking hell does she think i know everything.    she once asked me to look at her medical report which is all these medical terms that even a nurse wouldn't understand. then she said 'you are a university undergrad, you should know'

i looked at her and said, 'you are dumber than i thought you were.'

my mum rather use a pre-paid card for her handphone and refuse to use a line no matter what i tell her. then she keep wanting me to do her top-up which she can do herself.

then she left it aside without using it and her line now is dead.   (there is an expiry date for pre-paid card)
so she asked me 'what does the phone tell her'?'   it is something along the line 'the user is not available.'
i told her 'i don't know; and she exploded, saying me i am useless.

mad woman. just shut the fuck up.    (how i wish i can just say this right in her face but i can't. i can only plug my earphone and blast gackt's music into my ears while trying to lose the tension within me by this post.)

like the picture? because i do.  it has everything i want to see. yaoi + blood + 2 sexy men + death = emo is my favorite food. XD

this is from a movie called moon child. it is about japan's economy has collapsed and poor japanese immigrant forced to somewhere in china. then, gackt played a orphan who rise up in the mafia world with kei, his vampire friend. at first, it was just silly and gackt is basically like dante from devil may cry. never too old to be immature. gradually, it is just sad, sad, sad....

i have intended to cheer myself up because it is just madness this and next week. oral and listening this week + a presentation. 1 essay and final test for japanese next.  then it is reading week and final exams for 4 modules.   my life sounds like shit.    sometimes i just wish i am back to the days that all i need to worry about is my part time job.  school is worse than part timer.   i can seriously understand why neeters in japan is increasing.   it is a life you live for the day and live the next as it comes.   it is less stressful when you have to plan everything out. when one fail, it is as if the world falls apart.

however, this movie is far from cheerful.... the beginning, well. yes but halfway through, it is depressing.
oh well, i always like theme like this.   some said this movie is a waste.   i think it is pretty good.   there are worse movies out there, people. don't be picky when you can't act yourself.    look on the good sides. there are 2 tasty men on it.  

Title: Dementium the Ward

Story: if the picture disturbs you, it is meant to be.  You are a patient admitted into hospital. One night you woke up to an empty hospital and everywhere is just stained with blood. (interestingly, not on the ceiling.)     you have to fight for your life alone.   (not exactly alone. there will be some people alive. one will die and you can get his gun. )        fight zombie and run from cockroaches.  

comment: i managed to get to chapter 3 pretty easily.    i have to say horror game is really bad for the heart.  it is probably the music. you are made to listen to your heartbeat and when you are dying, the speed increase.  it makes me really anxious to the point i am breathing really deeply like i am doing yoga.   so bad on my heart.....      this game has a weird save system.  it saves at the door you enter within each chapter and brings you back to the door.  however, if you died before you enter the next chapter, whatever you save is gone. it brings you back to the start of the chapter, not to your last save point.  (sucks, doesn't it?)       if you in for a good scare, you can try it. XD

Pairing: HIyama Nobuyuki X Morikawa Toshiyuki (i am so gladful it is not the other way round.  hiyama's moaning is just disturbing...) 

Story: 'morikawa' is the owner of a sweet shop and his shop is facing economic difficulty. 'hiyama' is an elite of this company and bought over the building morikawa's shop is in.  (I am not too sure if he used his power in the company or his own saving.)   very typical but of course, i give 'hiyama' my respect for not making some stupid request like 'i saved your shop so in return, give me your body'    i hate it when seme says that. you bastard of a beast. 

comment:  i like the younger brother of 'morikawa'. why? it is nontan and that's why.     why do you think i even bother listening to it?  
let's just say i am biased so i was like on standby when sugiyama is not out and switched back on when nontan's voice floats in.

however, i love the first track. the conversation between the brothers just makes me laugh.
it started with 'morikawa' screaming at 'hiyama' to go back and never come back to persuade him to open a shop in the department store again. (because he was molested there)   then morikawa shout at sugiyama to bring the salt out. 

morikawa: rinki, bring the salt over. it is over there, right?
sugiyama: heh? if you want salt. we have some expensive ones that just arrive today. you sure you want to use them?
morikawa: eh! then sugar is fine too. just hurry up.
sugiyama: hmm... if you do throw sugar, it will attracts ants to the front of the shop. i suggest you better don't do that. 
morikawa: damn! i get it, okay!

the whole time, sugiyama used this 'i see but i don't care' tone just makes me laugh. half of it is because i think sugiyama did a great job with that voice. the other half is the younger brother's personality.... so practical. you probably think the younger brother has the upper hand in the family but no, that is the only successful time he managed to get 'hiyama' to listen. 

reading the novel now. if the second book of the series ever come out as a drama cd, i am grabbing it. why? yes, the younger brother is the main pairing and sugiyama is the seiyuu!!!

although i do like america's cute high pitch voice but his voice or should i say i was never and am not impressed with katsuyuki konishi's singing voice.

Japan, England's CD are great for every track. France has 1 track like i like. for america, looks like his is just plain crack....

i had a lecture on storing food and i said this really dumb thing to my friend.

well, this is what i heard. first thing first, there is this shopping street in singapore called 'orchard' because the road that runs through it is orchard road. now on the story.

lecturer: 'we need to pre-cool the fruits or any harvest.  pre-cool is to remove the heat from the harvest as soon as possible. this is because once you remove the fruit, for example the apple, then put it into this nice basket of you. then you walk down the orchard slowly to look for other nice apples. the heat from the sunlight and at room temperature, it will cause increase in respiration of plant blah blah~~~'

me: 'why go to orchard (road) to buy apple?'

my friend: 'the farmer lah'

me: 'oh~~~~'


ya, this shows that even if you are listening doesn't mean you always get what the teacher means.

seems like i am surrounded with bastards who speaks their mind too much without thinking.
even if we are all in university and university is a place that prides itself to nurture people into thinking people who can speak out loud.

but...... not brainless people who speaks without constraint. speaking their mind without considering how it hurts people is as good as not thinking either.

i bought a comic that is simply heavy everyday life. i was reading it in class and this guy (who i seriously hate because he acts big. i hate man who feel women should act small. i like to crush the pride of such men. XD)
and yes, this man.... he said it is shota-con. which i don't read and reject totally. i hate anything that uses child in a sexual way. it is simply wrong and disturbing.   then he said it is boring when i described about it to him.    

i was rather pissed already. i told him to shut up and i didn't buy books for the sake of lending people. i buy comics for myself to read. i buy things i like. neither did i recommend you the book and you can just fucking shut up and read something else you like. not that i care.

ok, next is the review. XD



Title: Flat  

Story: It revolves around a high school boy and his elementary cousin. no , no. not yaoi. i disagree with child sex. it is wrong.
either way, it is a really sweet story of how their interaction makes the high school boy learn that he need to consider for others before making a move. then it is the boy learning how to speak his mind as he is too quiet.

Comment: I think it is just sweet!!  you might find it boring since it is slice of life and does not have crazy humor.
i personally do enjoy slow paced stories like this with a slight touch of humor.  but somehow, i don't like Nana. hmmmmm

it is how one guy, who is always in his own world, change to accommodate and care more for others. then, it is about a kid whose parents are always busy. he found someone who does realize how much he has to tolerate and bear with being alone. someone who changed the way he talks and avoid any comments that will hurt him.  
basically whatever i chose not to do.    i like things that contradicts me.

i won't deny that the male lead and his friends are eye candies as well.   that is if you like this artstyle as much as i do. we don't all have the same taste. this is a relatively thin way of drawing but i am not a artist. =P

first my mum piss me off as usual. i don't know why she is such a busybody and her itchy fingers, feel like snapping them off.
why?

i helped my friend buy her DS. when i came back, i left it on the table. my mum saw it and came into my room, wanting to open it.
she went 'so rich. what you buy' and started to open the bag.

i went 'IT DOES NOT BELONG TO ME!! DON'T TOUCH IT!!!'

I could  have been nicer but i am too tired to play nice. i was at my friend's house, 5 hours straight to write an essay. my back ache and my  arms numbed
i have to come home to see her touching things that doesn't belong to me. .
she doesn't like me touching her stuff so what gives her rights to touch mine.
what piss me off is her first sentence is 'you are so rich.'
fucking hell i am not.        this is the second reason why i don't want her to touch.
she probably wouldn't believe that i bought it for my friend first. she will think it is mine and she will say "YOU ARE SO RICH'

then she hit my butt and say 'you are so rude'

........................................................ she doesn't get the message at all. dumb.



however, there are better things for me to do than get mad. tried to get those rubber thing to cover my laptop keypad because mine is beyond hope. it is just dirty.
then the ink are off. i cannot even see the key 'A'
so i asked the shop what to do. he said 'this is the first time i seen a keypad in this state. you type very fast and a lot, right?' 

ya, i am in art and social sciences after all. what do you think i do 24/7?

in the end, i need to resort to keypad stickers. quite a crazy amount of colours, need to get used to it. staring at the letters confuse me more than i don't.

what makes me laugh is he has never seen a keypad in my kind of state. lol.. is that a compliment or insult?

my brother just can't stop being a bitch. he just makes me so mad.

he suddenly want to stop the current internet and switch to the so-called free one with the cable tv.
it is free because it is slow like shit.

what i am angry is he just decides to do whatever he likes.
he doesn't even discuss with me. he is not the only one paying and using it.
what gives him the rights to just go ahead with his decision?
where are my rights to say no?

so i told him. 'fine. i will pay for it and you are not allowed to use the internet next time. stick your ass to aunt's house and never come back.'

Title: Gegege no Kitaro

Story: Kitaro is a yokai boy from the forest call gegege.  Like many other yokai related stories, yokai is a group of kind-hearted of creatures but pushed far into the edges by humans. yet, they do not hate humans but learn their way to compromise with each other (initiated from the yokai side since humans cannot see them.)     however, there are always 2 sides in which some yokai are really angry and tries to take revenge or in their quest for power, they need humans as tools. kitaro will help these humans if they do ask for help through his special agency.

comment:   i usually hate and avoid live action movies made from manga of a fantasy genre as they tend to go totally wrong. many of them do. however, when i was bored, i took a stroll in the dvd shop and saw this movie.  considering how hard it was to get japanese drama and movies in singapore 2 years ago due to the peak in korean craze, i was amazed to see any japanese movie and drama.  eiji waltz looks just cute on the cover and so i bought the first movie.   i just finished the second movie online just now.

i wonder why the difference in mood and atmosphere for both movies?  the first was like it is for kids, rather light with jokes here and there like kitaro shooting his hair off and turned bald. however, the second is just dark. the second employs all the dark and negative side of humans then slap back at you with love.  the second maintain the angst till the very end when the human girl bid her farewell.  

i am glad the hair stylist put in more effort in kitaro's hair in the second. the first movie is kitaro's hair is just bad.

i watched vash12349 on his play through for devil may cry 4. i think devil may cry has 1 very interesting character which is Dante.
dante is so cool. not cool as in FFVII cloud-ish type of cool who talks little and stands like a statue.
dante talks trash, acts like a child and still cool like shit. (something like america of hetalia).

he is so composed in a immature way. he loves insulting the demons and allows them to hit him which in turn insulted them more. this is because it goes like 'oh~~~~ he bit me. it's okay. i don't feel a thing.'    then he just kill them in the next second.  i am not kidding, he let the enemy stab him right through with his own sword or bite him till only his leg is left dangling out.
don't that just piss you off if you think you are that great but someone stronger is making fun of you by acting weak. it is like double attack.

the funniest thing is how dante kicks ass in all the boss fights cut scenes and in the final scene of him just cracks me. in his own shop, dante is reading his magazine while his two female acquaintances argues. then both of them glared at dante, wanting an answer to their argument. it is so funny how dante pulled his magazine higher. dante, who can beat demon boss like shattering watermelon, is intimidated by 2 women. 


the irritating thing is the creative team gives dante so different personality in each game. first one, he has this 'i am noisy but i can be quiet too.;
then the second was like dante had his noisy self killed. the cg scenes are so quiet. the third was a very young dante and this dante is pure madness. the last dante in DMC4 is just gofty and he takes his time. he kills boss in a manner that says 'i have all the time in the world.'

Name: Ookami/Ôkami.   (lit. wolf) which in Japanese mythology, often associated with god/ kami. so yes, basically this game is related to gods found in Shinto mythologies. 

Storyline: Some idiot took out the sword that sealed a damn powerful demon (eight headed dragon) and unleashed its curse over the whole world. The world is barren like hell and a wolf statue is turned into the goddess 'Amaterasu' (Amaterasu is a sun goddess)
So you travel the world as Ammy and Issun to save or restore the world. 

Comment:
Basically, I like the art style. I think it is simple but beautiful. Ammy is a gorgeous creature.

Overall, unless you get used to drawing a straight line fast enough with a Wii, you will hate this game. This game is originally designed for PS2 so yes, you can control the drawing easily with your nimble fingers. When you played this on Wii and try controlling with your arm. Well, unless you are a Chinese calligraphy master with Wii, you probably will start cursing. That is because I was cursing all day yesterday, it doesn't help better when people around me just start criticising me and laughing. It makes me feel like throwing the controller into their face. yes, i can't take criticism because i am childish.

Once you start getting used to drawing, it looks promising as a game. (that is provided you do like slow paced game.) it is a perfect game for me as i am those people who takes their own sweet time to play.     i am on the third day of the second week of The world ends with you 1 month ago and I am still am on the third day
If You prefer fast paced game like Devil May cry or Resident Evil, you should just turn around and look for other games.

My friend was complaining it is boring and I had to switched to Obscure, watching them hack on monsters. When I wanted to play again, my cousin came in and I had to go back to Obscure again. Basically, I had only managed to clear the first village. It might look like a boring game as it is a huge place in the first village and conversations are long. you need to repeat conversation as well.    i thought i got the hang of it but i have no time to make sure i did. so now school is kicking in with datelines so i can't.      and i am not going back to her house because they are so shit and  i hate her bbq.   
well, i bought an anti-social game so i will leave it un-played because you insulted me and i am childish.  i love wasting your money.




ok, let me lose it out here. i am going to complain from here on. so yes, review ends here.

i don't have any place else to lose it up so allow me to. (you may leave)
no one listens to me and that makes me want to cry but i can't cry either. i can't shout back at them. all i did was show a pissed face or just 1 angry sentence back and everyone just gang up against me. i suddenly is the bad girl in the neighbourhood who is just let out of jail.  everyone else can lose their temper and i am not allowed to? what is this unfair treatment?


I wish I have my own Wii and tv so no one can tell me what to do. I was trying to figure out this game on the first day I bought it but i couldn't even finish my tutorial because my aunt complains it is socially unfriendly and my brother complains it is boring. when i wanted to try it yesterday during a BBQ, which is a seriously bad choice, everyone just keep chipping in how lousy i am in controlling or it is boring.     sigh........................  i just hates BBQ in general. i have nothing to eat and i can't even play my games.

then my friend tells me it is too ex to buy a Wii for myself. the problem now is not the money, I can always save and decide later but the problem now is no one is giving me time to play it.  first my aunt, my bro then it is my friend and all my other relatives.      they even tell me the games i play on my ds is boring.............      did i buy a DS for them or for myself?        i don't get the joke if it was ever one. 

why it is that i am so  unappreciated by people? i am accused of being selfish and hogging (did i spell it correctly. ah heck it) the television.
my brother tells me i played it long enough when he was playing resident evil all morning, my friends played obscure and RE all afternoon.
i am so angry every single day, just like how i was in primary school when everyone call me a pig. now i am childish and hell yeah i am. i will show you how fucking selfish and childish i am. you mother fucker shits.  

after watching this amazing guy, i was like 'nice game. i want to play too'   
on top of it, Leon is just sexy and his beautiful ass!!
but then, i underestimated how screwed i am when it comes to shooting. i shoot without aiming and when i aim, i don't reload. lol. 

vash makes it look so easy. my brother and i both were like freaking panicking the whole time.
it is a very scary game. i like it.

then what is irritating is my uncle is the one who told me to choose some Wii games. my uncle bought Wii for my aunt because she wants it. however, she didn't bother playing so my uncle has to get my brother and I to play other games we want to play so in order for his Wii to worth the buying.

so.. if you want me to play, i buy games i want and i want RPG games. best that they are gore and with beautiful arts like ookami. mario cart just don't impress me.
however, my aunt complains that they are too gore and bloody violence. not good for the children who are playing. yes, yes. whatever, fuck off. you know why i am so pissed. i am helping you buy games and you are complaining. the worse is she is not even playing them and the kids she is talking about hardly appear. i am the one who is playing her Wii more.

irritating. they just piss me off. you want kiddy games like mario cart then i will make sure i won't touch your Wii because i rather watch vash and his epic moves.